| Finding Shelters In The Storm © Betty Sue Eaton |
Everyone in the world is identical! Outrageous, but true. We are all born the same way,
and we all die. That is a fact. What is not identical is each individual's reaction to the
death of a family member no matter by what means. What matters is that our loved one
is no longer living with us in this place.
As a grief counselor, I have observed that invariably one of the most common reactions
to the death of a loved one is a roller coaster of emotions. Everyday life is made up of
peaks and valleys of emotions; sometimes those peaks are much higher and the
valleys much lower than is normal. We are caught in a constant state of flux that we find
impossible to deal with to reach a manageable equilibrium. For instance, you may find
yourself laughing riotously at a joke or situation that does not merit that kind of mirth.
On the other hand, you may be suddenly dumped into a mess of soggy tears at a
simple empathy prompting story.
I experienced those emotions to the extreme as I tried to recover from a divorce. One of
the students living in the college married student's apartments I was managing told me
one day that she was going to be engaged to be married. I was not fond of the girl, but
her story dissolved me into tears. That was a totally inappropriate reaction to both the
news and my unexpected response to it. Another of the students, a senior psychology
major, witnessed the event and later counseled me to seek help as he feared that I was
on the verge of an emotional breakdown. He was right. I did seek out professional help
and found that one of the symptoms of emotional collapse is inappropriate situational
response. The counselor advised me to externalize - express my feelings to someone I
could trust to support me emotionally. That was probably the hardest, most painful work
I have ever done on myself, but in the end it was well worth all the tears and anger I
was able to work out!
As you progress through your grief journey, try to find someone, or something, that you
feel safe with and "externalize" your feelings. In doing so, you will be able to put the
proper perspective on your irrational behavior, ie: laughing at the wrong times, too
loudly or too long, or crying at something that does not merit the behavior, or not crying
at a situation that truly deserves your sincere tears. I cannot stress too strongly the
importance of sharing your grief as well as your progress with someone. You will get
appropriate feedback, honesty and reinforcement from a trusted confidante. Maybe
your trusted friend could be your pastor, or a fellow worker, or a Bible study group. We
all found those things in the grief counseling group, HOPE (Helping Others through
Prayer and Encouragement). And still today, even though we are separated by a great
distance, we still share over the telephone and still receive honesty, feedback and
reinforcement when we are on one of those peaks or down in one of those valleys.
This will be very hard at first, and you may feel that nothing is going to be better for
you, that no one truly understands where you are coming from; but one day, you will
look at how far you have progressed through your grief and realize that those highs and
lows have become much less severe and your life has taken on a manageable rhythm
of slight swings instead of intense jagged peaks and valleys. "They" say that time is a
great Healer. That is true, but it works faster when you seek a little help from a friend,
your neighbor, who may not walk in the same steps as you, but they do walk the same
path. But most of all, our greatest friend, neighbor, and Counselor is our Lord, Jesus
Christ, and He is the One who can comfort us most when the going is really, really hard.
and we all die. That is a fact. What is not identical is each individual's reaction to the
death of a family member no matter by what means. What matters is that our loved one
is no longer living with us in this place.
As a grief counselor, I have observed that invariably one of the most common reactions
to the death of a loved one is a roller coaster of emotions. Everyday life is made up of
peaks and valleys of emotions; sometimes those peaks are much higher and the
valleys much lower than is normal. We are caught in a constant state of flux that we find
impossible to deal with to reach a manageable equilibrium. For instance, you may find
yourself laughing riotously at a joke or situation that does not merit that kind of mirth.
On the other hand, you may be suddenly dumped into a mess of soggy tears at a
simple empathy prompting story.
I experienced those emotions to the extreme as I tried to recover from a divorce. One of
the students living in the college married student's apartments I was managing told me
one day that she was going to be engaged to be married. I was not fond of the girl, but
her story dissolved me into tears. That was a totally inappropriate reaction to both the
news and my unexpected response to it. Another of the students, a senior psychology
major, witnessed the event and later counseled me to seek help as he feared that I was
on the verge of an emotional breakdown. He was right. I did seek out professional help
and found that one of the symptoms of emotional collapse is inappropriate situational
response. The counselor advised me to externalize - express my feelings to someone I
could trust to support me emotionally. That was probably the hardest, most painful work
I have ever done on myself, but in the end it was well worth all the tears and anger I
was able to work out!
As you progress through your grief journey, try to find someone, or something, that you
feel safe with and "externalize" your feelings. In doing so, you will be able to put the
proper perspective on your irrational behavior, ie: laughing at the wrong times, too
loudly or too long, or crying at something that does not merit the behavior, or not crying
at a situation that truly deserves your sincere tears. I cannot stress too strongly the
importance of sharing your grief as well as your progress with someone. You will get
appropriate feedback, honesty and reinforcement from a trusted confidante. Maybe
your trusted friend could be your pastor, or a fellow worker, or a Bible study group. We
all found those things in the grief counseling group, HOPE (Helping Others through
Prayer and Encouragement). And still today, even though we are separated by a great
distance, we still share over the telephone and still receive honesty, feedback and
reinforcement when we are on one of those peaks or down in one of those valleys.
This will be very hard at first, and you may feel that nothing is going to be better for
you, that no one truly understands where you are coming from; but one day, you will
look at how far you have progressed through your grief and realize that those highs and
lows have become much less severe and your life has taken on a manageable rhythm
of slight swings instead of intense jagged peaks and valleys. "They" say that time is a
great Healer. That is true, but it works faster when you seek a little help from a friend,
your neighbor, who may not walk in the same steps as you, but they do walk the same
path. But most of all, our greatest friend, neighbor, and Counselor is our Lord, Jesus
Christ, and He is the One who can comfort us most when the going is really, really hard.
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