|Copyright by Carolyn Walsh
Posted here with author's permission.
|The clouds have been gathering for several days.
The tears like rain began to fall a little last night
But more this morning.
I could feel my heart began to explode again..
The thunder, lightning and hail crashing all around…
Ominous, foreboding, dubious…
No where to hide.
There is such a conflict of emotions…
The past, the present, the joy, the sorrow.
I feel like I’m hanging by a thread
that could break at any moment.
How long will it rain tears of sadness?
How long does the grief last?
I need some answers!!!
Sometimes the clouds are so dark and frightening,
but then the sun peeks through for a moment or two.
I long for sunshine…your sunshine!!!
I thank God everyday for all the happiness we shared.
Maybe that is what makes the journey so long.
...so much happiness and then deep, horrible, unrelenting grief.
In the book, "Listen to the Warm" by Rod McKuen, I quote:
“I’ve never been able to push the clouds away by myself.
That’s the whole problem…you always kept the clouds away
with your love and devotion for me.
You took such good care of my heart.
For today, John, would you push the clouds away?
Tell me, Sweetheart, that there are still
rainbows and butterflies and sweet smelling roses.
This is OUR anniversary but you are not here to hold me.
I am lost in the beautiful memories that we shared.
They become more precious each day.
The Lord has blessed me with those memories..
and I know He will let me keep them forever.
Cry and cry I must…for the end of a beautiful dream.
|A Christian Grief Ministry